The Turn For The Turn..

Thru life I have noticed most of my motivation comes from experiencing and physically seeing what I can do..realizing I can actually do something.. and figuring out the process it takes to accomplish it. When I am comfortable I get confident and when I get confident I get creative.. Yesterday I noticed I also get motivation from something else.. Ahh the joys of defeat... Its something I dont like to admit but it is something that I also really have enjoyed enduring while I am going to Taylor Andrews. I think I have taken the well paved road thru most of my life following career paths that I already know I am good at and really not fighting to spread my horizons and learn new things. Know I am pushing the envelope in becoming a hair stylist and for one of the few times of my life trying to expand out of my little box and achieve a dream. I would love to tell everyone how awsome I am at hair all the time -although I think I do have a natural talent- I am struggling to grasp the concepts and excel thru the comfort to confident-to creative stages. Im sure we have all felt it and there is nothing worse than when the walls start closing in and the doubt starts flooding in.. Its horrible but then again in my its great... Im motivated to be the best..and I will be

-Bean-

Photoshooting w/ Frustration

lately I have had the ability to be inspired by some pretty amazing people and accomplish some really cool things.. I just finished with my first photoshoot and it went really well.. Things could have been better of course but after enduring the little things and hang-ups I tend to come across doing new things.. the ending result was perfect.. Ashley was an amazing model to work with and I couldnt have asked for a better turn-out. I will post pictures on here as soon as I get them back from the photographer. Thanks Ashley your the best..

Since then I have scheduled a few more models to do photoshoots and I am really excited to work with them and get more experience.. I also have talked to some pretty amazing photographers who I am really excited to have come out and do the photography. http://camhatesblogger.blogspot.com/ This is Cam's site and I have nothing but confidence in him and his ability to make this a really successful shoot.

So Im super excited for the future and all the new things I am learning and trying to accomplish. I am taking a class in March from an amazing hairstylist named Nicholas French, going to LA to a hairshow with my school in the end of January and working on my photoshoot for the NAHA's.

Art..I have this amazing ability to start all these new ideas and when it comes to finishing them well I either loose interest or run out of time but im bound and determined to finish a few this break... so stay tuned.. I have also made arrangments to have my art show up in SLC sometime in the first few months of the yr so I really need to finish a few by then..

Merry Christmas

-Bean-

Life is interesting.. Life is well...Grand

I dont know how long it has been since I have felt the ambitions and the drive to just live. Even walking seems diffrent when your excited about life. Isnt this the worst picture of me you have ever seen..? But yet one of the most full of life pictures I have ever seen of myself. -Bean-

Well I should be a lil' more faithful at writing on this site but with all the new and exciting things going on it is hard to find time. Sooo here is the update If anyone cares to know..-Holla- . I just recently started @ Taylor Andrews Academy of Hair Design.. to endure the long awaited path of being a hair stylist. I really like the school It is way cool and of course all the "girls" I go to school with are dope too...It is awsome to be learning new things and finally enjoy school for once. For those of you who know me you know how creative and artistic I am (Boastfully) I am really enjoying being able to use my talent and incorporate it into my leducation and future career.

I have also decided to tackle the wall of runnin a marathon...well a half marathon for now but I have wanted to do it for a long time and I am realizing everyday that I am not getting any younger(28). arggg so it is prolly a good time to start. A bunch of friends and I have started training and we are running the half marathon in St. George on January 17th. -Effin tight huh-Training is hard but in the end it will be well worth it so I say why not. It will also be nice to loose a few and get in better shape. So January 17th come to the finish line I will be the one that Calapses and gets carried away in an ambulance..but atleast it will be at the finish line and it should be a good show for all you who enjoy watchin' someone come near to death.. Hopefully I will have the drive and ability to tackle a marathon after that.

So anyway life is it, School is the jam, Training is training, and Art is my life. I have been workin on a few pieces that I am eager to share and hear feedback on.. I am sure as you can see with time.. Well its pretty hard to maintain it all but I am trying..

-Bean-

Stranded in the Heat N' Skinwalkin' Slang

Amazing things are on the rise in my life peeps..Who would have known the heat in Arizona could make me want to bath in ice water and who would have known my "again"busted Audi would leave me stranded in St George. Final opinion and conclusion... gather up all the swear words in the world and combine them into "SHIT" its definatley deserved.
Audi + me = broke down
Arizona + me = Get the hell out
I know it may be disappointing to hear to some but hold on'.. heat is awsome, too much heat not so awsome. I really do appreciate Utah mornings and evenings more now that I ventured into the off beaten swells of the Arizonian oven. Bullhead city..eat shit
Yay for Germany.. could it possibly be that Hitler is back from the grave and in the Audi manifacturing business. I believe so.. Although its just my speculation these chisle faced, over engineering foreigners have found a damn good way to screw with my life.. Germany..eat shit, Audi..eat shit too.
There it is out and I can breathe. With the conclusion of one nasty week always comes the start to an amazing new one.. " I Learned A New Word" well its in high debate to the authenticity of actual grammar or if I have been subject to some Vernalish slang.. (Swig..or Swigg) either way you spell it it still ranks in an 8 on the bad ass wierd word scale. So Swig on Swigs its the Swiggin' new swig to swig too. (huh) yeah I dont understand it either but who cares. Its best just to ask Cami. Skinwalkers..yikes anyone heard of these lil jewels. To be completly honest I wish I wouldnt have maybe I would have slept last night and not woke up wondering if there is a beastly shaped creature ready to steal my soul or what ever they do.. "Google That Shit" I was told and I suggest everyone else do the same.. Its a good read and a horrible night.
-bean-

The New Mural

This is the new mural that I started in my room. It spans roughly 12' x 5'. Deciding to do a project this size brought the harsh reality of .. Time.. yikes I am still working on it and I will post updates-Bean-

Random Drawings

The Effects of Music-Graphite

Still Life-Graphite

Skull-Charcoal

Demons-Oil

Gesture Drawings 2

Here are more Gesture Drawings I have done mostly using live models-Bean-

Charcoal-Live Model

Charcoal-Live Model

Charcoal-Live Model

Charcoal-Live Model

Charcoal-Live Model

Graphite-Live Model

Red Pencil-Live Model

Red Pencil-Live Model

Red Pencil-Live Model

Red Pencil-Photograph

Red Pencil-Photograph

Portrait Drawings

"Have no fear of perfection because you will never reach it". Salvador Dali
Here are some of my portrait drawings I am still trying-Bean-

Old Man-Ball Point Pen

Dollar Bill-Self Portrait -Graphite

The View-Graphite

A Gift For An Ex-Graphite

Oil Paintings

I never really enjoyed painting until I got older and now more than anything this is my preference-Bean-

Man Vs Machine

Freedom of Speach-Incomplete

The Beast Within-Incomplete

The Begining-First Painting

Still Life

Rooted In My Art

The News- After they sent my brother to war.

The sickness of Feelings

Still Life

The Fears That Lurk Inside

Still Life